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The wheel has been set... [07 Aug 2005|02:34am] [ mood | pensive ] I swear, i always begin with "Wow, it's been awhile..." And i only seem to write when something has happened...well, this will be no different... We lost my grandmother on July 22nd. It was one of her usual in-out of the hospital journeys, but somehow she took a bad turn and after spending the whole day with her, we went home for a few hours and were called to say that she had passed away in her sleep. She's finally where she wanted to be: Back in the arms of my grandfather. I miss her so much, both of them really. They were my surrogate parents growing up and sometimes, it still hurts so much to think about them now...but i know that it's best to remember the good times... Those good times still make me smile... I love you, Nanny. I hope you are happy where you are. Tell Pa and Fluffy we all say hello... *sigh* Onward to other things, my mom is having money woes and we are very tight at the moment...she is still jobless and i've got the weight of the world on my shoulders. Sometimes, it gets a bit too heavy to hold...but i'm doing the best i can... New job is awesome...Wal-Mart is a great company to work for. Been there for a few months and already i've gotten a promotion...Back to supervising customers and the front end...People are frindly and the hours are long....but i love it... :O) Possibly going to Watkins Glen next weekend...Martin was supposed to be doing a signing near me, but cancelled at the last minute... *rolling eyes* Doesnt bother me too much, but i was looking forward to seeing him...Maybe i'll still get a chance... Alright...bedtime... Goodnight All.... 1 engine started - drivers...start your engines.

changes... [28 May 2005|01:40am] [ mood | hopeful ] As they say... I'm standing at a crossroad...looking back on what my life was...where i am now...and what my future may hold... To those who know me...they know that i am unhappy with many things in my life right now...the male situation, family life, and probably the most hated thing right now...my job... Dirty, nasty, stressful freakin' fast food... Whether i'm management or not...I am a peon and the system is screwing me royally... I'm going on 27 years old and i feel like i'm 67...I dont even "live" my life...i exist in it... This is my present... While the past road is unattainable...i can look back on it now and smile...everything has happened to me for a reason and i have nothing but the fondest memories of my childhood... every person has made me a better person...every event has shaped me into the person i am today... With that said...I am striving for the future...I want to enjoy things again... I want to feel like an actual person again... I want to be me again...I'm not trying to be morbid or anything like that i'm just trying to give myself an outlet for all the stuff i'm dealing with right now.... I'm 9 years into a job i hate and i'm finally offered something new...And i'm scared sh*tless by this opportunity...what if i fail? what if all i'm good at is slinging chicken? what if...? I cant live my life on what if's... I'm leaving KFC...I'm leaving Chicken Hell...and damn it...i feel free again...maybe now the other parts of my life can fall into place...maybe now i can actually attempt to live my life.... I cant wait... drivers...start your engines.

We'll miss you, Fluffy [06 Jan 2005|12:53am] [ mood | sad ] Well, this is one of the hardest things i've had to write...Tonight, we had to put our 18 year old terrier mix to sleep....She's been with our family since she was 6 weeks old....been through everything in our lives and has always been that constant friend through everything...I grew up with her but she was very old, and had cancer....And last night she lost her ability to stand up and walk...she just couldn't do it.... The decision was made by my mother and i that it was time....It's something that i wouldn't wish on anyone....feeling that sad...She was still aware and awake when we brought her in to the vet....it was so hard to make the decision when she was like that...it was almost like she was her old self...but we knew she was suffering....she hadn't eaten today and we just felt that it was time.... So i'd just like to take a moment to say this....Fluffy, Words can't express the gratitude i have for the years of friendship you've given me...more than a dog, you knew my deepest secrets....you were my best friend and i will miss you dearly..... ...until we meet again....         drivers...start your engines.

somedays... [12 Nov 2004|11:32pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] some days are just that...days...they pass by without much thought, or do they? Had the night off tonight and while i didn't do all that much, i spent the night going through yearbooks and old letters....definately one of those nostalgic kind of nights that puts some problems of now into perspective... Yeah, i know i'm not making much sense, but just in that odd sort of way, it was an uplifting night....but sad as well... A friend just joined the Navy a few weeks back...this is the "friend" that i have such strong feelings for...dont know what they future is going to bring for us...not that there really was ever an us.... *sigh* I dont know...just felt the need to get that out... In other news...i hate my VCR...lol didnt tape all of Lost for me this week, so now i have to waiti until NEXT Saturday to see this weeks episode...probably wont tape this weeks either, just wait until Sat... Enough ranting from me.... drivers...start your engines.

[28 Oct 2004|02:23am] [ mood | frustrated ] people suck somestines...they really do...I just love the fact that i go to work to "babysit" my employees....UGH....sorry, just had to get my frustrations out.... anyway...not much else to say except that i'm about to go check the RotK:SEE preview then i'm off to bed for another fun-filled night at work... Again, so sorry about the rant...just hate immature people sometimes... 1 engine started - drivers...start your engines.

tragic... [25 Oct 2004|02:30am] [ mood | sad ] I dont even know what to say, but just feel like i need to say something. The news of the Hendrick tragedy is weighing really heavily on my mind tonight...i just cant believe it... I'll keep this brief by saying, My thoughts and prayers are with Rick Hendrick and family, all of the families affected by this loss, as well as all at HMS...May God bless you all and keep you near during this difficult time... You are all on my mind.... drivers...start your engines.

So i'm a slacker... [29 Aug 2004|12:57am] [ mood | exhausted ] ...really i dont mean to be....I've yet again neglected my journal....eh....sad thing is i kind of forget i have it... So hopefully i'll be updating a bi more in the coming months....not that anyones actually reading what i've got to say.....LOL drivers...start your engines.

[26 Feb 2004|01:33am] [ mood | blah ] why are men such...mysteries? or maybe it's me who's all messed up... word of advice-never ever take an interest in one of your co-workers...It'll drive you insane.... I should actually no better, because i've been living it the past 2 years, but i can not stop myself from being very attracted to him.... i could just kick myself for letting myself fall for him all over again.... Anyway...tired as hell right now....need sleep...and also need to get away for awhile... not likely to happen, but it'd be nice.... ...and people wonder why i'm so into fantasy stories/movies/games...sure beats the hell out of real life sometimes.... drivers...start your engines.

...blah... [21 Feb 2004|01:26am] [ mood | pissed off ] *sigh* I hate having the feeling that the best years of my life are just passing me by...It was one of those nights tonight that everything is really kind of bothering me....work...home...I just need a change.... Is it possible to have my mid-life crisis this early? lmao....every single day i do the same thing....go to work, come home....vicious freakin' cycle...my days off are spent sleeping in and then doing errands i've put off for way too long or doing things for my mom.... Is it selfish to be wanting a little bit of time for ME??? alright, alright...i'll stop the ranting here...just wish that i knew how to change some of the B.S. i'm constantly dealing with... 2 engine starteds - drivers...start your engines.

[21 Feb 2004|01:19am] Quiet Girl What kind of little girl were YOU? brought to you by Quizilla drivers...start your engines.

quiz time...lol [21 Feb 2004|01:16am] Heart of Crystal What is Your Heart REALLY Made of? brought to you by Quizilla drivers...start your engines.

[17 Feb 2004|02:59am] [ mood | tired ] *sigh* Definately one of those nights tonight...i'm tired as all hell and just wanna get to bed...luckily i have the day off tomorrow....just hope all goes well... found out some not so great news tonight, but i'm not going to dwell until i hear more information... until then... 1 engine started - drivers...start your engines.

blah blah blah [16 Feb 2004|01:47am] [ mood | cold ] another damn long time since i've actually USED my journal....but there's a bit of cool stuff going on now....My step-father finally came home from the hospital...he's still got a long hard journey ahead of him....but every day he's getting stronger....Can i just say that it's great to have him back home? Other news...work sucks major ass....well...thats not really news....we've got our new assistant manager....well...he was below me...now he's above me and on a friggin' power trip....which makes my life a living hell there... I really need to rethink some things and attempt to find another job....rather than just bitch about my job and do nothing.... *going night night now* drivers...start your engines.

[22 Jan 2004|12:29am] [ mood | bored ] Which LOTR character (male) would you end up with? by Cormak Username: You end up with: Merry You meet on: March 11, 3028 This is where: in the forest And this is what happens: You live happily ever. Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0! drivers...start your engines.

[21 Sep 2003|11:41pm] [ mood | moody ] Remind me again why i agreed to work 55 friggin' hours this week????? I'm so tired right now i can barely see straight and i'm just in a pissy-ass mood....lol I wish i could even have a day off in sight but i dont even know when my next day off is.... Got home from work about 30 laps into the race....SOOO glad Elliott had a good top ten run most of the day...he needs to be running up front where he belongs...not sure what happened at the end though...car really fell off...It was scary watching Junior be pulled out of his car...not cool... :O( Just glad he's ok... Yeah, well...i'm gonna go find my bed now....lol 1 engine started - drivers...start your engines.

grumble.... [18 Sep 2003|12:27am] [ mood | bored ] Eh...i went over and checked out the other journal place...I had Elliott Sadler and Casey Atwood listed in my :likes" and i think i was the only person that listed them....So i think i'll hold out oer here for awhile....I'm a creature of habit....lol drivers...start your engines.

ho hum.... [17 Sep 2003|11:54pm] Whoa....two days in a row.... Actually...I was just browsing over my friends page....and i am currently checking out greatestjournal.com.....LOL Manda, you inspired me again..... ;O) 1 engine started - drivers...start your engines.

[17 Sep 2003|02:08am] [ mood | sleepy ] And again, another broken promise to update my journal....Whats it been now? three months? lol I'm such a procrastinator....well, actually...I've just been busy....still working a ton....I swear i lead the world's most boring life.... Yesterday was one of those days though, that you wish you had just stayed in bed.... It has been a year since my grandfather passed away....God, i miss him so much.... I still can't believe we've gone through a year without him.... So yeah, last night was all emotional...which is hard for me sometimes, because i hate crying...but anyway... **happy thoughts now** Congrats to Jimmie Johnson and the Lowes Team for winning at Louden!!!!!! and my boy, Elliott had a top ten.....only gonna get better for them.... Let's hope Hurricane Isabel stays far enough away from Dover for this week..... Alrighty...enough of my ramblings.... 1 engine started - drivers...start your engines.

not really new but....My Watkins Glen qualifying trip/Elliott Sadler meeting...lol [17 Sep 2003|02:04am] I had quite an adventure actually getting to the track, especially when my family and i had planned on leaving early Friday morning...Now, i was going down the the Glen with two first time race goers and they didn't understand the importance of getting to the track early...Needless to say, didn't leave my house until 11.45...and didn't get to the track and get settled until 2.30 ish...I was still kind of bummed that i wasn't able to stay the whole weekend...and all my mom was concerned about was getting something to eat and getting herself a Bobby Labonte hat...lol Not fun going with first timers when i was on a stict mission...lol So i got to Elliott's trailer as quickly as i could and found out that all of the tickets for his signing had been given out earlier *sarcasm* Thanks mom....lol...which i had figured would be the case...I explained to the girl there about my afternoon getting to the track and how i had been trying to meet Elliott since last year...that, coupled with my proud wearing of Sadler gear...got me one last ticket...I have to say the people Elliott has working for him are awesome... :O) Needless to say, my mom was in her glory going from trailer to trailer buying everything in sight...LOL I didn't really manage to see many cars on the track...which kind of bummed me out...but there's always next year for that... All afternoon there was a threat of rain...so i was hoping that would hold out...Luckily it did, only sprinkling while i waited in line for Elliott...then after meeting him, it turned into a steady downpour...so that was lucky... Didn't have to wait long at all before the line started moving and even then,the line moved quickly. Anyway...I rounded the corner of the trailer and I got to watch Elliott a bit...he really is good with the fans... he took a pic with a little boy, sat him in front of him on the counter and just talked with him like he was the only person there, it was adorable...not to mention that he seemed to be giving individual attention to everyone that i saw... Right after i got to the front of the trailer i ended up getting stuck behind two very "difficult" individuals who had somehow cut into the line by "buying merchandise" while E was signing... I was patient and was just standing there waiting my turn when i hear the woman almost yelling something about being "...pushy...you dont have to be so pushy..." and i notice she is directing her anger to Elliott...so he goes "Ma'am, i'm not trying to be pushy..." but she says it again louder and Brett is saying the same thing E had just said and the woman was like "I'm talking to him..." (points to E) "I just dont understand why you're being so d*mn pushy..." and E answered the same way, adding, "I'm not trying to be pushy...and there's a whole line of fans behind you that i've got to take care of..." So the lady is still standing there, refusing to move, when her counterpart,is saying he wants a hat...and Eddie and Brett are bending over backwards to get this man a hat, pointing to all the different hats and he goes... "I want HIS hat..." meaning E's... so the Eddie grabs a hat identical to the one E is wearing and the man still insists that he want's "...his hat..." so E takes off his hat and throws it down on the counter... "Sir, i'll give you my hat...." You could tell he was upset and i felt horrible for all of them... While the whole hat thing was going on... Brett had grabbed my program and the mini-liscence plate i wanted signed... At this point i was a little bummed and a bit ticked at the whole situation.. bummed because i didnt think i was gonna have my proper... "time" with E because of that happening directly in front of me...i wasn't sure what to expect from Elliott after something like that and E had been signing my stuff right right through the hat ordeal... So after those two moved to the side a bit...E looks down at what he's signing and was like..."Now...who's stuff am i signing?" and I said "Mine" and he goes, "I wanna make sure you get the time you deserve..." and smiled at me...so i thanked him, congratulated him on the Person of the Year thing and asked if i could get a picture with him.... ( "Of course..." he said...) Then i wished him luck on Sunday and like rubbed his hand...just a friendly gesture ...and he smiled again and said "Thank you...Sorry bout all that..." Not to mention that when he first appeared, my 13 year old sister, who was decked out in Bobby Labonte and Harvick gear, called out "Hi Elliott Sadler..." , to which he looked at her, waved and smiled...and made her whole weekend...she's still talking about how "Elliott Sadler waved to her..." If i was "just" a fan before, i am a die-hard fan now...i met other drivers last year who didn't come close to the way Elliott treats his fans. I could tell he was frustrated, but he gave me focused attention, he was friendly and appreciative...I was sporting my Elliott Sadler shirt, among other things and i think he took notice of that.... drivers...start your engines.

[02 Jul 2003|01:56am] drivers...start your engines.

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